You seem to have had a life full of trouble and you're not going to wait for anything good from it. The prevailing position of your consciousness is that everything is unfortunate. You consider hardship inevitable, and happiness a coincidence. Self-pity and distrust to everybody prevents you from enjoying life and achieving success. To cheer up and get a new lease of life, learn how to appreciate small joys which happen to everybody. Remember, life is always such as you agree with. This is our perception that creates our mood.More »